{the page of swords}

we've decided to become self employed again.
after 2.5 years of being gainfully employed by another,
we realise,
despite it's obvious benefits (holidays, sick pay etc)
it's not for us.

this is obviously a big decision,
and we are wild with ideas,
so i drew a tarot card to try and harness the message from my soul.

pages are like children,
they carry with them the spirit of youth:
unbridled enthusiasm,
optimisim,
faith,
all those yummy words not jaded through experience.

however,
it is often through experience we gain wisdom.
for not everything necessarily goes the way we hope or want.
sometimes it's unpreventable,
but sometimes it could have been.

particularly in terms of business,
with a little foresight,
with a little thought,
with a little hindsight,
with a little planning,
with a little reasoning;
some things could have worked out differently.

we've had 3 businnesses in our past and,
we are lucky,
2 of the 3 shops we sold on are still thriving
(one unfortunately died a premature death under the care of another)
but looking back,
there were so many things we could have,
should have,
done differently.

too driven by our hearts,
cam and i are guilty of ignoring our minds.
and this is what the page has come to tell me.

because each page brings with it their own special gift.
and for the page of swords,
the gift offered is growth.
but it is wrapped up in challenge.

ideas, thoughts,
start floating in,
presents from the universe ~
little packets of opporunities which,
if opened could change your destiny.

but what they contain is often unknown.
and so one should choose wisely.

in the past however,
cam and i would grab indiscriminately and,
although we somehow managed to make good in the end,
i know in my heart things could have been better.

so the page is here to say yes:
grab these parcels of delight,
but harness the raw energy of air.
use forces of intellect and reason,
and ground these opportunities in honest soil.

it will require fortitude but,
by using experience,
thinking before speaking,
planning before acting,
and learning from mistakes ~
there is potential for magic.