{thank you}

i just wanted to say a big thank you for the kind and thoughtful comments left on my last post.

one wise soul said: "by voicing how you feel, you are bringing light into your feelings and taking power away from shame."
and she was right; the post was surprisingly cathartic.

i was afraid as i released those feelings, because the truth can be ugly, and i worried about how it would make me look... but the kindness reflected back was not only soothing, but served to fill me up when i was feeling lacking ~
so thank you.

my mother is doing well.
she is still in hospital but we hope to have her home with us early next week.
for those who kindly urged me to seek respite help; we have done for quite some time, but it was only towards the end of last year that we finally found a social worker to heed our call. so we now have 3 weeks respite care lined up (spread across the year), and our first block is in june.

there is so much that goes with caring for my mum,
and so much i feel i am yet to learn about myself in the process.
purging the guilt i sometimes feel has been the first step on a new journey of discovery here; and i am open to all that lies ahead.

in the meantime i look to the picture above, taken on a sunny and happy day, and look forward to more of those to come.